Oh wow where do I begin....the niggas I done had in my life really taught me how to love myself because they treated me like shit! He used to beat the shit outta me to the point I didn't want to go to sleep...he would put cigarettes out on my face...spit on me...cheat in me and sometimes I thought of just taking my own damn life....but then I would see my daughters face...she had no idea what was going on...I allowed a man to take so much out of me....the arguing the fighting the cheating the BITCHES....oh these BITCHES.....I hated every single one of them....I now know why this man did the things he did to me....because I never gave a fuck about who I was....I was satisfied with the term "So,I got a man"...nahhh that shit wasn't cool....how could I be raising a Lil girl to believe that it's ok for a man to call u a bitch or it's ok for him to take everything and let you sit in the dark because drinks and weed was more important than lights in the house! I thought I had it all figured out when I left him.....but I guess I didn't because 3 babies later I did this shit all over again with someone different! Smdh
Man this one touch my heart....
ReplyDeleteI thought it would be hard to write about it but it's getting easier....maybe someone who is going through this will see they can leave that situation and be happy as a single person
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