It's 4am and I'm up thinking bout my son and the challenges I face each day with him. I know my son needs and wants a male role model in his life because of the things he says or does. His sisters all have their fathers and that really hurts him. His father Danny Rodriguez from Gary Indiana) walked out on him when he was 2 Weeks old and it's like he's vanished into thin air. I would lay down my life just so my son could at least SEE the person who walked out on him so that he (my son) could form his own opinion of his father! Although Danny walked out...I've never called him anything other than His name to my son because I believe it's so wrong to try and dog the man that helped make the baby just cause he's no longer around. Fuck all that! The day my son meets his father will be the day HE chooses to want a relationship with him or not! Whatever my son chooses I'm with him 100% but I WON'T allow him to be disrespectful in his words if he chooses to say a few words and bounce! It's things like this that piss me off bout these females out here fkin like 40 going North, have kids then wanna keep em away from their father(s) THAT'S A BUNCHA SIDE BITCH BULLSHIT! It's ONLY hurting the kids! So what if he don't do SHIT for the kids...when you took that child home and he wasn't there with you YOU chose that day to become a single parent!! You had other options! Not saying it's cool for a man to dip out on what he helped create but damn what's constantly bashing him going to do but cause stress and headaches and possible resentment from your own kids!! If Danny walked up to my door right now hell yea I'd side eye his ass a few times but my heart would melt because my son will be able to put a face with a name THAT'S ALL I WANT! I don't want his damn money....I want him to meet his son and if he DON'T want to be in his life FINE! But he needs to at least give my son his moment! These folks have my son on this medicine and I'm like man it's more to it than that...the medicine he needs is called MALE BONDING! A mother knows...and I have done all I can do to track his father down...thousands of dollars spent trying to locate this fool and every time I THINK my search is over he's 10 steps ahead of me. Smh....no matter what though.. my son WILL rise above all this cause he has a mother who diligently prays for him! He will stumble but imma be right there doing all I can to make sure he's on the right track to success!! TRUST THAT!!
