A man WILL change FOR the woman he loves

If you've ever wondered does true love really exist and can a person really change to be with the one they love...then the answer is YES!!!! This blog is based on a real life love story and I'm honored to have been part of this AMAZING journey! (I won't be using their names because you know how some ppl will read this and hate on REAL LOVE)

13 Yrs ago I wanted to take my friend out to have some fun. I told her we was going to a party in the Bend..she was very reluctant on going tho but I convinced her lol...When we got there I was to introduce her to this guy she saw him and was like uh no...then she asked me "Who is that fine dark dude" I'm like I have no idea! He walks over introduces himself to her and immediately they had a real good vibe! Eventually they started a relationship and right then I knew he was THE ONE! Like any relationship they had their problems...he was the party guy.. she was the workaholic...and she did NOT like the fact that he was a ladies man! After awhile she couldn't deal with all the constant partying and women every weekend, the phone calls etc.. .I used to tell her no matter what that MAN LOVES YOU and YOUR KIDS and one day HE WILL BE YOUR HUSBAND! She did not like that idea she was like oh heck no he won't he doing too much!! (Now don't get it twisted..her and her kids ALWAYS came first in his life) Finally she had enough of his BS and left! They stayed apart for 10 yrs. She began her walk with God and stayed faithful to God only and he was somewhere being him! Eventually they both ended up marrying and divorcing other ppl but through all that time I would ask her had she seen HIM or talked to him she said NO...I would tell her the smile you used to have was because of him. One day she was going through some things and I told her GO FIND HIM..he is the only man that completes you and makes you feel loved! Took her awhile but she found him...they immediately fell right back in love with each other and after all these years he decided to do whatever it took to keep her in his life FOR  GOOD! He stopped clubbing, drinking, smoking weed and GAVE HIS LIFE TO CHRIST! He is a walking testimony to how GOOD GOD TRULY IS! Through his faithfulness to God he was able to LEARN how to PROTECT,PROVIDE,COMMUNICATE AND TRULY LOVE her! Here they are today HAPPILY MARRIED for 4 years, own a home and he stepped right back into her kids life as if he never left!  I salute these two because you would've had to been there through this journey to see this love story unfold. They are prime examples of how a person can change in order to build a live that was once gone away!

If you truly love someone YOU have the power to keep them!! See the enemy KNEW this was a LOVE FROM GOD so he tore it apart...but what the devil meant for bad God meant for good! Them departing was a good thing because it allowed God to PREPARE AND CONDITION the both of them for a successful marriage!!!!!

I'm thankful to have been part of such an amazing journey with them because it showed me ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WHEN YOU LET GOD DO HIS JOB and A MAN CAN CHANGE FOR THE WOMAN HE LOVES!!!!!

My laughter masks my pain

It's so true when they say "An idle mind is the devils workshop" Yesterday I was an emotional wreck! I had suicidal thoughts because I felt like everything I'm doing to try and make a better life for me and my kids is not working. Yes I laugh and joke with lots of ppl online because that's my outlet to making someone else have a good day because I might be going through something. My laughter masks my pain....the pain of not knowing when someone is going to call to say we have a job for you or the pain of not knowing how to keep my utilities from being shut off! I told my oldest daughter the thoughts I was having because I knew she could make me understand things a Lil clearer when it comes to "Living right" She told me "Mom it hurts to hear you say these things but the battle is not yours it's the Lords and just because you don't think he's listening to you...he is...everything is going to be ok" THAT right there gave me more hope than I ever had in my life to keep going! The thought of knowing that I raised my children to trust God even when I think I can't go on makes me more proud of who I am! See just because you see a person always laughing and smiling and trying to encourage others doesn't mean they don't need that same thing from others. I don't club, hang out, drink or fornicate and I'm fine with that as long as my kids are here with me that's all that matters to me. The only time someone calls me is to see if I can do something for THEM! No one calls to check and see if I need anything! I have always had a very big heart and saying no is really hard for me when it comes to helping others but I want ppl to understand ME AND MY KIDS ARE OVER HERE LIVING OFF A HOPE AND A PRAYER please be considerate of that! I have put all my trust in God that he's going to see us out this storm. I hold on to the faith that I have knowing things will get better and I cry at night to have a better morning! So ya see it's NOT always happy land over here.....I go through real life issues too....if I told y'all some of the things me and my kids have had to do to survive without money y'all would be thanking God EVERYDAY for your job or your car or the fact you can go buy things needed for your household.....that's why I just Smh at some of y'all COMPLAINTS cause I don't think you really know what struggling is until you hit rock bottom with your kids like I have! So keep ya fake daps hugs and hellos.....from today on I DON'T CARE WHO YOU ARE PLEASE DON'T ASK ME FOR ANYTHING cause truthfully I'm taking from what we barely have already! I love you Nisha Nay Kira Zay Charlene Bre Zontrae Utavia and Trelin!! If it's not about helping one of these kids....then don't ask me to take from them to help YOU!