Man imma try not to cry while writing this because I have so much to be thankful for!
It's been a situation (well 2) that has been eating away at me for quite awhile and I hope this reaches the right person! I was a dear friend to you and you stabbed me in the back in the worst possible way....not once but twice! I really have been praying on these situations and I really did think I forgave you but something deep inside me still doesn't feel like I have! There was NOTHING I wouldn't do for you and u left a very loyal friend hanging on a wing and a prayer! I could have betrayed you so many times.. even NOW I could but the person I am won't allow me to do it! See you do things without thinking how it will affect people because you're so busy thinking about yourself when had I known I would be going through everything I'm going through now I woulda just left you hanging and struggling trying to come up! BUT THE FRIEND IN ME DIDN'T DO THAT! I can't believe the rumor u put out there about me...that's what hurts the most because you know that shit is so untrue! See me I could tell ALL YOUR BUSINESS but for what? What's that going to do besides put me in a category with the rest of ppl who get mad and then wanna expose!? Nah Shorty it ain't in my blood to do that.....I was woman enough to come to you but u got mfs out here thinking some whole other shit about FALSE TRUTHS! It's a shame that I have let this shit go on this long! You can't even be woman enough to call me and apologize about ANYTHING! That's because YOU NEVER GAVE A FUCK! I truly deeply sincerely forgive you....but it just doesn't feel like I am doing it right! I swear with everything in me I have asked the good Lord to help me...so why doesn't it feel like the forgiveness is helping! Why do I feel like I hate you when I know I don't? Why do I feel like I did something wrong when I know I didn't? Forgiving you was harder than forgiving the man I let tear me down....but u....I trusted you....if u needed it I had it for u or I damn sure made a way to get it for u without expecting anything back because THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS DO! Now you prancing around town having a damn good time....well u wanna know what I been doing since you stopped speaking because now u found "love"....I been fighting to keep a roof over my kids head...I been in this house paying disconnect after disconnect notices because I have other obligations that I've fallen behind on because I thought I could do this on my own! I CAN'T! Jobs are turning me away....I damn near lost my gun permit and it's other shit that I won't even speak on because it's too much! Oh I hope u had an awesome Christmas too....cause u know what...my kids didn't get to enjoy it this year! So I pray u read this and understand the shit I been dealing with while u were out TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME AND LYING! I could destroy your whole damn life with THE TRUTH but you know me so well u know that imma dust this off....keep my head high....and forever keep my grass cut low because forgiveness isn't easy at all! I pray you be blessed because this didn't kill me it only made me STRONGER!!!
(I know I cussed while using holy words but y'all gone have to pray for me)
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